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I had a particularly rough last few days. I'm not sure what to say about it here, but I wasn't okay. A lot of that I think was just that things have been difficult recently - I started medically transitioning by going on hormones in early September, and I've been dealing with hot flashes, fatigue (from early waking - I've been losing 1/2 hours of sleep each night waking up before my alarm and being unable to fall back to sleep - but also potentially cyproterone acetate), worsened mood (related to the aforementioned but also it feels distinct), and increased mood variability (in a bad way - mostly just super duper sad).

This is a period of transition:tm:, but I'm feeling a lot better now - I hate waiting, but I got good news from the Dr. on Monday that they're happy to raise my dosage to 100mcg, and they also decided it was fine to decrease my CPA from 12.5mg/daily to 12.5mg/once every two days (I think this is fair - CPA should be minimised and my T was below 0.4nmol/l!).

I think a non-trivial amount of my non-hormone-induced stress was around this. Trans healthcare sucks. In my case though, I got lucky. All I had to do was contact another GP and wait. I know this isn't possible for everyone and nor does it always work out, but if you're ever in a similar situation or want to smite down some not-so-nice medical professionals, know that it can get better.

Good luck to you.